Faith? Whats faith?

It seems that I had stop believing in religion. No, don't get me wrong, that doesn't mean I am an atheist or a freethinker either. I still believe in God and being literally born a Catholic, I still believe in Jesus. What I had lost faith is the teachings and the man-made laws that govern it.

Whenever I look around on the current state of a few of the World's major religion, its saddening. People killing in the name of their religion, people threatening to kill apostates, intolerance between religion and the chaos religion had caused. Everyone seems to had forgotten the essence of religion itself!What happen to the "love, peace and tolerance" that is suppose to be there in all religion?

Leave the deceased alone!

If you had not know, the religious department had strike once again to have the right claim another dead person's body. What the fuck is wrong with these fucking dickheads? Can't they just let the dead rest in peace?

What gives them the right to snatch away other people's husbands and fathers corpse and bury it themselves? What are they trying to prove? One more dead body = points in their "merit" books so that they can go to Heaven? Or they are just trying to further boost their already inflated ego?

Tell me what is wrong with the decease's family to bury him? This is not a constitutional issue nor is this a religious issue. Its about a group of fucking extremist (terrorists to some minor extend) that try to boost their egos by bullying a helpless 65 year old widow. May God condemn their useless souls in hell and put them through twice the pain and suffering A. Rayappan family is going through right now.

Streamyx Blues

Like most, if not, EVERY broadband user I had my fair share of issues with my ISP, the infamous and fucked up, TMnet. For the past 5 days I had been experiencing horrible connection speed. How horrible you say? Here's a little screenie to tell you how fucked up my line is these past 5 days:


Yeah, I had been receiving a freakin' double digit KBPS BANDWITH! Tried calling those assholes and waited 5 days because I called on a Friday and they asked me to wait for 2 working days (don't an ISP suppose to have technicians on standby on a 24 hour shift?) and yet they still tell me that they will be getting to my problem ASAP when I called today.

Go broadband my ass you fucktards. First you can't provide sufficient bandwidth to your customers and you start blaming BT users. We pay for our bandwidth mind you and we demand to get what we subscribe. You can't even provide decent fucking stable connection and there you are always asking more people to sign up to you. You are just fucking lucky to be the only ISP monopolising the broadband provider market or you would had soon gone the way of the dodo. Vision 2020 my ass.....

Pak Lah = Best Comedian Ever

From Pak Lah himself

"It's just that it was not revealed and the project his son got was bigger than the one Scomi got. I did not say more than that to him. Other matters about projects that Kamal got, I did not touch on much."

Am I the only one finding myself laughing non-stop since reading the newspaper today? WTF is Mr.PM trying to say? It's ok for his son to get big fat suspicious looking contracts as long as the Tun's son had a bigger contract than his son?

Another classic from the Lah himself

"The Sultan’s comment reflects the people’s opinion. Many people have said so."

Did he even ask me about my opinions? Stop using "the people's" when it doesn't even reflect all of our opinions?

"To me, I fully understand the promises in my manifesto to the people."

Wow, is it just me or I had never ever heard "asking people to shut up when things get awfully wrong" part of his manifesto during the last General Elections?

I can clearly see what Title Pak Lah will have once he retires: "Bapa Ketawa Malaysia". Who says he did not achieve anything during his days as PM?

Idiots...

Alright, before I start ranting let me fill you in about the company I am currently attached to for my Industrial Training. My company is Chinese owned electronics factory and they are very very stingy. They also want to squeeze every single worker dry. Heck, they even go as far as rationing A4 papers for office usage. Let's not even go as far as the boss rejecting to buy AutoCAD for his engineers because it costs RM8000+. He even suggested to go buy the RM5 version from our "friendly local software retailers" instead of buying the original ones. I hope some law enforcers better read this because this will be a real "money making oppoturnity" here. If you guys want to make that quick buck, you can always send me a message and I am glad to be the whistleblower ^_^. I can go on and on about how fucked up my company is but I think you get my point so I will just stop here.

So today there's this hungry ghost worship thingy going on in my company to pray for the spirits that are vacationing here in this realm during their one month long public holiday. For the past few days the boss had all the Chinese who celebrate the 7th month to do his dirty work for him. By buying those "hell" money, paper clothings, incense and candles. He even spent a few thousand bucks on food for the spirits. He even import in 2 goats which cost RM2000 each just for this occasion. In my 2 months in the company, I had never ever seen my bosses (its a partnership) being so fucking generous before. Which made me to think..

It is so fucked up that my bosses prefer to spent such a huge amount of money on spirits than using it on his employees. As much as I respect the dead, but honestly, will those spirit make him money? No! EMPLOYEES make him money. EMPLOYEES work for him. You can worship the dead all you want but at the same time you must show the same respect to the dead as much as to living people. They are the people who work their asses off for the company so they should deserve some amount of respect. If burning paper money can make you rich, then why people like Bill Gates that do not follow this tradition are way richer than my jackass bosses?

No point "belanja" the dead "makan" a huge feast when you can't even treat your workers like humans instead of machines.

What is transparency?

In Malaysia, transparency is a BIG word. How big exactly? Big enough to win you 92% of the parliament and also nearly the whole rakyat's confidence. So what does it really mean to us Malaysian? Most importantly what does transparency means to ever blogger's favourite Prime Minister, Abdullah Badawi?

You see, back when Pak Lah first step into the "throne" of the Prime Minister, he pledge to the whole nation that he wants a clean, corrupt-free and transparent country. Everyone believed him. Even me, the opposition supporter is touched by his shit (Datuk Fu said we must practice self-censorship you know ^_^) speech. Everyone says he will bring Malaysia to new heights and shit like that. By everyone I mean the mainstream press since they always thought they know what we think.

The PM did all he could (since the Elections are coming). Releasing the Air Pollution Index to the public to show that he is no Mahathir. Next he catch a few Datuks and charge them with corruption (with their cases never to be heard of again in the papers). When the elections came he won a whooping 92%. After that all hell breaks loose. Everything that the PM once pledge seems to go down the toilet bowl called Malaysian politics. It seems the fight for corruption seem to stopped suddenly and transparency took a back seat.

Two years after the elections, scandals seem to sprout out one after another. Scandals like squat-gate, APs, Proton, MAS, Half-ass Bridge and Mahathir's several accusations on Pak Lah are all half-assly censored off. Most of them seems to follow a format like these:

Step 1: Headline the news.

Step 2: Have every single editors in the newspaper having their say on the issues.

Step 3: When the issues/scandals seems to reach it's peak and Malaysia finally had press freedom and the government is pissed.....

Step 4: With a full potong-stim way of doing things, it seems there are no such issues at all after that. There are no more reports on the issues or what so ever and finally...

Step 5: The very same reporters and editors that once condemned the issues and scandals to hell, start to defend the government.

So is that transparency in Malaysia? When something new comes up the press can report everything they want and when everything seems to reach it's climax the next thing you know it, it became silent again. Even the most transparent place in Malaysia (which is the Internet) is not spared by the higher ups. Bloggers now are threatened so that we can't have our say on the issues because to them that is misreporting. We can't have our opinions too because that is defamatory. We can't speculate too because that is called rumours. So can anyone tell me what is Pak Lah's definition of transparency?

Ministry of (Mis)Information

Please read this before reading on.

What on earth is ZAM trying to tell us here? That the media is to be blame for the violence and hideous crimes in Malaysia? I wonder which jungle did he crawled out from. The only way for the media to tone down reports on crime is when there are no crimes to be reported at all! Security in Malaysia is horrible at best and the police or the good-for-nothing ministers are doing nothing about it. Everyday there are people getting robbed in broad daylight and everyday you see people getting murdered senselessly and ZAM thinks that it is the media's fault?

Why can't those higher ups use their brains for once? We the rakyat especially the ones living in highly populated areas such as Johor Bahru or Kuala Lumpur are constantly living in fear. Most of us do not even fear of losing our possesions but our lifes. What had the GOVERNMENT had done to tighten up security? What had the POLICE FORCE had done to ensure that our taman-taman are safe to live in? Absolutely nothing. We see police patrols all the time and most of the time they are there to prey on us and our money for breaking minor traffic laws instead of doing their duty and ensure the safety of an area. We see Ministers threatening Bloggers and corporate buildings instead of doing what they should do: SERVE THE PEOPLE.

Wake up ZAM... stop insulting all rakyat's intelligence with your fourth World propaganda and misinformation.

Goodbye my dear friend

I knew you since you first came into MMU. We walked the same road briefly and became the best of friends. You helped me when no one wants to help. You are a very nice friend. A friend who can sacrifice for others. You had your flaws... but in the end you are a nice guy.

Then one day you pissed me off... you apologised and told me that I am one of your closest friend. I am touched... but you chose a different direction in life while I stayed on mine. We never meet each other since then and had minimal contact. One year later.. you are gone. You had passed on.

I don't know how to describe my feeling right now. Maybe its regret... regret that I had not talked to you for so long. Or was it that the friendship between us is still strong. All I can say is.. I am sad. I am very sad. My mood's fucked up right now and all I can do is pray for you. I hope you had a good afterlife. A better one than this one.

Goodbye my dear friend. I will miss you and you will always be in my memories. May God have mercy and bless your soul.

Weird?

Someone complaint that I never write anything about my personal life in my blog. So what is a better than kicking off the "third season" of my blog with an entry of my personal life, eh?

It was this evening when I was reading the newspapers in my room and I come across this picture of Pak Lah in the front page. I said "In your whole career as PM, you had never made a right decision before" to myself and than my bro who was on his way to his room heard me talking to myself. I did not notice he was right outside my room until he said "You are very weird, talking to yourself like that".

"What is wrong with talking to myself?" I asked.

"It is just so weird" he replied.

After that he walk into his room. I was still puzzled by his remark then until I remembered that he had never been alone all his life. He had always had someone to talk to and someone to play with him all his life. You see, he and my 2nd brother is only 2 years apart while me and my 2nd brother is 5 freakin' years apart. I am never close to my brothers as there is this one huge age gap between us. The only conversation that I can strike with them is about computer games that we play. Other than that, we had nothing else to say.

I really do envy my two little brothers. They are so close. When they are down, they can share their sorrows, when they are angry they had each other to complain to, when they are bored they have each other to talk to. Sadly, that's a life I had never had. A life that I wanted if I can go over this again.

I had always been growing up alone. Well its not always like this. I use to have close childhood friends when back then when me and my parents are living under a rented roof. I was living downstairs while my friends lived upstairs. Well, life changed for me when I had to moved to our very own home when I was 5. My life changed. I had been growing up alone ever since. It was during these times that I develop a habit of talking to myself.

During my childhood years, I had only myself to talk to. When I am sad, I had only myself to talk to. When I am happy, I can only share it with myself. When I am lonely, at least its not so bad... I still have my pillows and my plushie camel with me (the camel's had been long gone since secondary school). When I am bored, I only had my computer to play with. You might be wondering where are my primary school friends? Well you see, primary school for me is the worse 6 years of my life ever but that's another story for another time. When I reach my teenage years, things were better. At least I had some nice friends with me and I can go and hang out with them but still at the end of the day, I still talk to myself a lot as most of the time when I am not with my friends, I will feel alone at home and I will start talking to myself. That is why from that moment on I had started to join and organised activities up until now.

Hope nobody thinks I am weird after they read this entry >_<

It's Bear Season again ^_^

After such a long break from blogging, I decided to pick up my keyboard and start again. So many thoughts and opinions that I want to express that I can't in reality. Another factor that drive me back to blogging is that I am hoping it will help me fight away the blues of having Industrial Training in one of the worse companies in Malaysia.